This weight has finally hit me in the face

Looking back at the past 2 1/2 years it was probably the most stressful years of my life. It started with my dad getting sick in July 2006. He ended up having to have brain surgery to get the tumor out of his brain. He started Chemo and hit his all time low. He fought as hard as he could but the cancer ended up getting the best of him in March of 2007. This is the start of me gaining weight. I tend to be a stress/sad eater. I was so sad that the cancer got the best of my dad, and questions kept running through my head what are we going to do without my dad? I ate and ate and ate. I was accepted into the Dental Hygiene program in July of 2007, I was so excited - my dad was looking for me and was helping me reach my goals I have for my life. Little did I know that the program was REALLY intense and stressful. Then began to eat more and more and more. As the program went on the more stressful it got. In the past 2 1/2 years I have managed to gain about 40-50 pounds. Which I can say I am NOT proud of. With gaining weight this fast I have became very self conscious.

With school being over for little less then a week I am going to try to conquer getting this extra baggage off of me. I know this weight isn't going to come off over night and I am going to have to work hard. I would like to be healthy when we start trying to have a family and that is going to happen shortly after we get married.

I am going to go back on Weight Watchers and I am going to try to do this by myself. This is when I have the best luck, weird huh? I am going back on the point system for a week or 2 and I am going to try to work in the 30 day shred. In the past when I did weight watchers and worked out I ended up gaining weight, I know muscle weighs more then fat but it is frustrating to me and I get discouraged.

I plan on heading up to Rochester today and I am going to stock the house full of healthy food. I am going to count this as day 1!!!

Here are some pictures of me from the past 2 1/2 years

This picture was taken the weekend before my dad got really sick

This was almost a year after my dad got really sick. 4 months after he passed away

This was in Sep 2007. I had lost about 15 pounds that fall

This was the weekend after we got engaged- March 2008

Our engagement pictures October 2008

Mexico Jan 2009

Graduation May 2009